My Temporal Dilemma

“Get it together René.” That’s a comment I’ve made all too often in my life. What does that have to do with this blog and why are you writing this, you ask? I keep getting to work late, and this is my punishment. Unorthodox? Yes. But I guess it could be worse. In any case, for those who know me, my main weakness is probably my propensity for procrastination, which in turn leads to me being late to many things. To be fair, this is nothing new and it’s something I have addressed, and continue to address in my life. Though it’s getting better, little by little, sometimes it takes a little prodding and reflection to see exactly how much it happens with me. I swear, sometimes I think it’s a genetic disorder or something – and I’m only half kidding. To those on the outside who fortunately don’t share my dreadful disease, it may seem like an easy thing to fix. In reality, it’s far more complex than it appears. The thought process is the same every time: I tell myself that I will be on time for something and plan accordingly. Additionally, I write notes, set alarms, etc. to make sure it sticks in my head. Yet, when the time actually comes to get ready for something or to wake up, I consistently underestimate the time it takes myself to get ready and transport myself to a location.

So what happens is that the voice in my head tells me “Oh, no rush, you have plenty of time,” or “Hit the snooze button once more, you can just get ready quicker.” I’m sure you can see where I’m going with this. I sometimes sit there and try to examine my mistakes from my last tardy adventure so I can try to avoid that next time, yet it happens again and again. This is not to say it’s not conquerable, because most things in life are. I’m not trying to make excuses, just trying to explain my thought process and where I’m coming from. The temptation for excuses is often a powerful one, but in reality is a sign of weakness – something I continue to remind myself. Let’s face it, I’m nearly 23 and it’s time to get my act together, once and for all. I’m not saying I’ll be perfect, but I will do all that I can to ensure that this vicious cycle of death and destruction is vanquished in my life.

by: Rene Perez